Why not?

I don’t even know how to start this, or what really to say, honestly. My significant other just broke the news at work that he’ll be going to Texas at the beginning of february on a roadtrip. This came up because I’m planning a trip to disneyworld for us and two other people and he suddenly tells me this. When I told him that he never told me all he does is look at me and say, “Yes, I did.”

But i know for a fact he didn’t. That’s not just something you spring on someone, especially not a long term girlfriend that you conveniently forgot to bring it up to, a girlfriend that apparently isn’t invited, but several other people from work are. Thanks, a lot.

So now I’m pitifully sitting at my desk and blogging to NO ONE. But I just want to say that I’m upset. Yes, admittedly, I cried a little. I’m not sure why, but my chest just feels super constricted. Is it because I feel like he’s leaving me? Probably. Because, In a way he is. How do you just conveniently forget to tell someone something like that? Like it’s not somewhat routine changing. I probably wouldn’t have known until the day of had I not brought up disney world. I wonder how he would have posed it, “Hey babe, I’m leaving for Texas tomorrow with some people from work, see you in a couple of weeks or so. Call me if required”?

I mean Jesus christ this is kind of a sitdown conversation. I mean WHERE IN GODS NAME IS HE GONNA GET THE MONEY FOR THIS? I sure as hell know that I’M not paying for.

I just want to go home and sleep, or clean. Either one sounds a lot better thaan sitting here in this desk right now, angsting over something that he will probably see as “A weird reason for being upset.”

Is it that weird, am I honestly being stupid?